From the desk of ' the ex'

i went to sleep confused last night and woke up today feeling sad.i checked my phone a hundred times for a message from you.there was no goodmorning message..but i did get a msg from alya though..false alarm.
its such a shame really,last night i simply could not register it but its finally hit me.i guess i wasnt the best girlfriend..no scratch that..i guess i wasnt a good one at all.but im sorry.sorry for not treating u right.sorry for not understanding.sorry for being so insensitive.sorry for the things i said in my blog.im just sorry

i just cant go back to my life before it happened.i can't just love being single again..its just not the same anymore.


Let me not to the marriage of true minds
Admit impediments. Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove:
O no! it is an ever-fixed mark
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wandering bark,
Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken.
Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle's compass come:
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
But bears it out even to the edge of doom.
If this be error and upon me proved,
I never writ, nor no man ever loved.

-sonnet 116,william shakespeare


in other words....
love isn't love when u stop loving someone simply cause they stop loving you.Love does not alter with hours and weeks.love's value cannot be measured.

so i guess you lied when u said you loved me cause if you didnt,the things i said in this blog wouldn't have made u stop loving me.and us not seeing each other for three weeks wouldnt have effected us.but it did.



"I wonder how it's going to be When you don't know me.How's it going to be When you're sure I'm not there.How's it going to be When there's no one there to talk to Between you and me"

- how's it gonna be, third eye blind